I really feel like my life is crashing down around me. Oh well, I guess its due. Karma can really fuck you up when you least expect it. But I heard a quote once...

"Whats the difference between school and life? Well school teaches you a lesson then gives you a test, but life gives you a test that teaches you a lesson."

I guess that could be applied, but eh. I never feel like dealing with it, or i'm just not up for it. I wanna help everybody, but I can't even help myself. I can't get over my own bad habits, and I set myself up to fail way too much. I can't even keep a gf anymore. I feel so worthless and depressed. I can hardly stand on my own two feet these days.

She doesn't wanna listen and tellls me to suck it up because its what I did to her. Fair enough, but just because I did it, does not justify you doing it. Are you in it for revenge? To make me feel what you felt? Are those feelings stronger than your love for me? It seems to be the case.

But it doesn't matter, its all my fault regardless. Every situation I come into, is my fault. My fault, my fault, my fault, that's the way it's been my whole life. So fuck it. Blame me, because I'm the bad guy you people need to point your fingers at so you can feel better about yourself.

I'm getting really close to being pushed over the edge, and only look out for myself. Fuck everyone else, you fuck around, you get laid out. End of story. Put a few bullets in yo ass so you shut the fuck up.